Pictures (or playin with my new camera)

I have been promising pics for ages, so yeah, finally got around to uploading. There not great, and I like to ramble, but there you go.

This is my baby. Well not really, he is the biggest out my my two torts, but the little one was sunbathing when I had my camera out.

This is my nieces hyper Hamster Gizmo. Its such an adorable little critter. It literally never sits still and loves being around humans. Somehow, it managed to escape the other night while everyone was asleep. It was in my nieces mum's bedroom so her mum woke her up and told her to 'sort her hamster out' (hehe) She literally went in and went, oh gizmo, come here. The little thing walked across the room and climbed up onto her hand. The thing is mad yet so adorable.

I had a friend staying last weekend and we decided as it was nice to go the beach in Llandudno (Wales)

She was very proud of her bread. But..

..Oh noes.

It was very touristy, but the colours were super fun to play with on my camera.

I love the colour of the sky.

My niece came to stay once my friend had gone home and I snapped this picture, which I quite like.

And Dad took us out, so I could play again hehe.

I love how quickly the camera responds when you press the shutter button.

On a regular digital camera there is always a few second delay and so I often missed the shots I wanted.

Though, I do miss the 12x optical zoom of my old camera. I have a 18-55mm lens on this one. So I might have to invest in a zoom lens in the not to distant future.

I love that I can manual focus though, no more fighting with the auto focus and having to move the camera about to get what I want.

The water here is so clear that I loved playing about with the reflections,with no distortion. 

The colours are so vivid and clear.

And the finest details picked up.

Though, I obviously cant take credit for the wonderful scenery. 

But the auto focus comes in handy when framing shots.

And I do try to shoot from unusual angles. They say that something like 80% of all photos are taken from the near enough the same height, though it did alter when digital cameras came in, as people no longer had to lift them to their eye, and isntead hold them just below shoulder level. So often you will find me sitting on the floor with my camera.

Though I should have set my tripod up for this pic, as the sky very slightly over exposed as I couldnt lower the shutter speed enough without camera shake.

Yeah, maybe a little morbid, but there is actully a forest close to my house called Delamere forest. (A lot of the scenes for Star Wars VI where filmed there)

Oh how I love reflections. And this time I did manage to use my tripod, as the first one, the sky and the reflected sky both white'd out. I do like this one.I did bring the sky into full colour, but the foreground ended up a little dark. ha,Ishould go back to playing with HDR images. I do love the way HDR stuff comes out, but its a lot of post production and I have more fun taking the pics.

me and a bee

Last week, there was an 'anonymous' comment on left on my blog, that lead me to thinking. The comment seemed more like a personal dig than anything else, but perhaps that was my interpretation.

Anyway, it got me to thinking. Does my life revolve around being ill? And is it the only thing that I do or talk about? Which also lead me to the question of, what kind of person do I want to be.

My answers? Right now, I am exactly who I want to be. Sure, I have some crap cards, but my goal I set myself last year, was that I wanted to make the most of them and not end up bitter, angry and consumed by hate. Well, I think that I have done pretty well at that if I do say so myself.

Right now, I love life. Sure I would love it more if certain things were to change, but I actually have better health right now than I have in the last 2 years and you can tell. My room is organized and tidy and something to be proud of. I have so much interest and passion into different things and I have aims and goals.

I have so much going on right now, that I dont blog nearly as much as I used to. That being said, this blog was always set to be a record of health things and so I guess it will be more focused on that. There are things still irritating me. All the graduation photos appearing on facebook right now is one of them, not to mention the topical conversation in regards to abuse and violence that seem to be going on at present. But you know what, I am dealing with them, better than I have done in years. I am taking steps forward. The flashbacks are still there as are the triggers, but I can control them and most people know nothing of them or my triggers. Mum was deemed to ill for chemo this week, and her moods have been erratic, but once again, im not on self destruct and it feels so good to be coping.

I dont want to be ill, I want to be well. That is why I want a respiratory diagnosis. I want treatment, I dont want to decline. I dont want to be under constant infection whilst my tissue is destroyed. If it is bronchiectasis then knowing sooner rather than later, can mean treatment,prevention rather than cure. I would not go down the route of organ transplant again and my family know that. So right now, they support my choice to do what I can to keep my health. I know that I am doing all I can. Sure I am not the more religious person when it comes to medication routines, but I also know what my body needs and if sleep will benefit it more than forcing myself to stay up an halfheartedly run treatments, then so be it.

Life is for living and I will do what I can to live. I know that I am doing the best I can for my body and mind. So thank you Anonymous commenter, as I realised my dream of being the person I want to be, has been accomplished.

I shall leave you with a photo I took today :) (Though I have had a great few days with a friend, but those pics will have to wait as the internet here is on a go slow.)