Showing posts with label Organ donation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Organ donation. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

Tubes and inspiration

Right now, I feel surrounded by tubes. Kept alive pretty much by tubes.
Tubes to feed me oxygen, tubes to feed inhaled medication, tubes for fluids and IV medication, tubes to feed oral medication. Tubes tubes tubes. I think the hardest thing about tubes is that it is pretty much impossible to feel anywhere normal whilst surrounded by them. Going the toilet? Dont forget to take your drip stand stand with you. HEadache getting to much, put your oxygen back on, chest to dry, pass the nebulizers, medication time and still not able to take oral meds, put it down the stomach tube. Airway not holding open, lets stick a tube in it.
Tubes can be a god send, but at the same time a restriction. They remind you that things are not as they same, they keep you tied down.


My arms are bruised from yesterdays attempts at drawing blood. Today in theatre, they poked and proded and had a couple of attempts to get an IV in, with not much luck. Eventually decided to use gas to put me to sleep. I awoke with an IV running, back of my right hand, not the most comfortable place, but its in. Its also starting to block, but it has been well used. Hartmens, glucose, potassium, saline, morphine, ondanstaron, paracetamol to name but a few.

I have to admit I was slightly disapointed coming around after surgery. I came around shivering like mad, but thats not unusal. Coughing my head off, again normal, and struggling to breathe again normal, but not what I had hoped for. I knew things wouldnt be brilliant right away and yet I still hoped. The machnies kept beeping and my oxygen got turned up. After the initial I feel crap put me back to sleep feeling you always get when you first come around, I settled, until another need made itself known. A need that would cause great pain. I needed to wee. I assume they had pushed a ton of fluid into me and my bladder was busting. I was not doing the whole bed pan thing in recovery, so I grin and bared it.

They wanted to sit me up to help my sats, but there was no way I could bend in the middle. I hoped to go back to my ward soon. As soon as I got back to the ward, I rolled out of bed, again not able to stand upright and dashed to the loo. wow it felt good. what a relief. Then my breathing came back to the forefront of my mind as I realized I couldnt do it to easily. Snuggled back into bed with some oxygen pushing my sats back up from the 88% mark.

Doctor came to see me later on. He tried covering the tube, I managed about 4 breaths before I started to struggle. Hopefully it is still swollen. Tomorrow, I am down for a tube change to a fenestrated tube (hole in the top) and then see if I can cope with that covered.

Fingers crossed again.
I think I might be able to tomorrow. I am already getting a little more voice out.
Its strange though, its as if I can breathe in two differnt ways. The way that feels natural, but leaves me breathless, I assume through the tube. And the way that feels alkward and takes concentration but leaves me able to breathe better, I assume through my mouth. Tomorrow will tell when the easy way gets blocked.

Also I wasnt meant to have a NG (tube in my nose to tummy) but I am still nil by mouth until I get a swallow assesment and as I have night time medication that can not be missed (anti rejection) they had to put it down. Which I hate and cant wait to get out haha. In the mean time I get to look cool with a yellow tube hanging out my nose.

Through all of this, I dont feel as bad as I thought I would. I guess it could be many things, the support of my friends and family, the drugs or even the fact that I seem to be drawing strength from those around me.

I was going to orginally make a post about how I wish people would quit with shoving things up my nose, tubes, cameras etc. But then the lady in the bed opposite me came back from theatre. She obviously has a lot going on cancer wise. She was in theatre for at least 6 hours (eek) looks rough and has tons of tubes. Yet her family came in and though she is obviously in pain (I can see her monitors) she was smiling and making jokes. You could literally feel the love radiating from her area. Kinda humbling really.

I have also been thinking a lot about a lady I heard about in the news the other day. She has 2 kids and CF. She needed a lung transplant, but struggled to get one. Bascially she has lived in the ICU since April this year on a vent. Seeing her child twice a week, waiting to exhale as she put it. She died the other day. Its such a shame. Everything she has been through and for what? All the time waiting and hoping, the family holding on by their finger tips clutching at straws and jumping at every phone call. Only to lose her anyway. Again, you can see the love around the family and my thoughts go out to them right now.

Waiting To Exhale


Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Liver Transplant Information & National Transplant week

So I promised to write a couple of factual, experience type of entries. (fun huh)
If you have any questions, even if you only see this like years after I have written it, then please get in touch - comment as I will still answer.

As today marks the start of national transplant week in the UK, I am going to start with Liver transplant.

Did you know that you are more likely to need an organ than you are to donate one?

Did you know that all major religions support organ donation as it is seen as a gift, not destroying any creation?

Did you know that a lot of people wont sign the register because they feel that if they were ill, they would not get the same treatment? This is completely untrue, as it would be different doctors dealing with it and the doctor treating you will always do their best to help you.

Did you know that in the UK alone, 3 people will die on the register everyday?

Only 28% of people in the UK are on the register and we have rank nearly the lowest out of all developed countries.

Show you care. Sign the register!




OK so my expiernce with transplant is slightly different from most peoples. My transplant was due to trauma (stabbing) rather than illness. This of course comes with its own good and bad points. I didnt have to go through the awful task of living life on the list, always waiting for the call, life on hold all the while getting sicker and sicker. But this also means that I did not get the chance to accept needing a transplant, in fact I didnt even know I had had one until about a month after it and the consequences didnt sink in for a long time after that. It also meant that I did not experience that suddenly getting better feeling that most people with transplants experience, instead, I remember being well one day and the next thing I knew I was ill and told I would never fully recover. From never seeng a doctor, never taking any tablets, never being sick, to suddenly attending a lot of differnt clinics, taking a handful of pills a couple of times a day and generally being exhausted everyday.

But I am coming to terms with it and I am still here, which has to be a god sign right.

I think out of all organs, the liver is the one people know least about. Heart and lungs everyone knows what they do and that you cant live without them. Most people know about kidneys and dialysis due to huge media coverage (It is the most common organ transplanted and generally the one with the best out come)

But, my parents for example, didnt even know what the liver did nor that it was that important. I think awareness has increased recently with all the media on alcoholism and such as well a bloody George Best (who caused the rates of organ donation, especially livers, to fall dramatically) So that is where I think I should start.

The liver is the largest organ (except for some places that tell you it is skin that is the largest) in the human body. It is located on your right hand side of the body, under your lungs. The main job of the liver is to aid the break down of food and pass it into the blood system. It helps to change the food into energy that the rest of the body can use.

The liver is the most complex organ and actually has 1500 separate functions, this is why, even with todays technology, it has been impossible to create an artificial liver. Liver disease/failure often shows as Jaundice, which is a yellowing of the skin and the whites of the eyes, due to a build up of chemicals (bilrium) in the blood. This may also be accompanied by things such as abnormal clotting or internal bleeding. Liver failure can also lead to low blood sugar volumes, that on their own can cause problems such as brian damage if not managed correctly. As Liver disease progresses t can cause damage to the other organs as they are under more strain.

Ok, so I am going to skip straight to after transplant now. Please remember that I am using my guide book and things that I have picked up since transplant. Things may have changed since I learnt or may vary in your area, so please check with your doctor if you are unsure on anything.

After transplant, life changes, hopefully for the better, but their is a lot to take in. My biggest suggestion, always keep a pen and paper close by. Jot down everything to look back on. and never ever be scared to ask questions!! There is no such thing as a stupid question.

You will learn a lot whilst in hospital, some of which im not going to really cover as I dont feel I remember enough of it, nor would it be useful to know before transplant or once discharged. This will include things such as physio showing you how to use a rolled up towel to support your abdomen so that you can cough with less pain. Get plenty of rest after transplant to heal quicker, but also get up and moving as soon as you can. The longer you sit, the harder it is to get going due to muscles breaking down. You may also have a lot of tubes to adjust to at first. You might have a T tube coming out of your abdomen that is used to drain fluids such as bile.  It might have become nescary to have a feeding tube placed in your nose to give you extra nutrition whilst you recover. And probably the worst one to adjust to is a catheter, which will drain your bladder of urine until you are up and about and able to deal with toilet needs better.

And of course you will have at least one line in somewhere. This will probably start off as a central line in your neck. This is to give you fluids and medication such as painkillers.

The first three months after transplant are pretty tough, but hang in their, it will get better. Set backs are most often experienced in the first couple of months. This is because you need high levels of immunosuppression to begin with to stop the transplanted organ rejecting. You should avoid any sick people, or people with colds as best you can for the rest of your life, but most strictly in the first couple of months.

I would say, go out and buy a couple of big bottles of hand gel and place them all around your house, especially the kitchen. Makes sure everyone uses them regular and keep a small one in your bag and in your car. Public toilets are some of the worst places. I often look around and if they look nasty but I have to use them, I will gel my hands before I even come out the stall.

Medication
Your whole medication regime will have changed after transplant.At first you will have a lot of painkillers and of course some laxatives to counter act the problems caused by the painkillers. I was always told to use natural senna only.

You will also have immunosuppressants, sometimes called anti rejection medication. The body views the transplanted organ as a foreign object that should not be there and so it attacks it. Up to 3 types of anti rejection medication can be prescribed long term at the same time. They basically stop your immune system from working as effectively, which as I am sure you will gather, leads you a lot more open to infection. They also have some larger consequences as in they leave you more prone to developing certain types of cancers, especially skin cancers and ovarian cancer. Sun cream should be worn in daylight and you should avoid sun during the hours of 12 and 3. Regularly checking your skin for changes as well as making sure you attend any appointments such as smears can help to reduce your risk.

The main anti rejection medications are:
* Cyclosporin (Neoral)
*Tacrolimus (Prograf, FK506)
*Azathioprine (Imuran)
*Mycophenolate (Cellcept)

The amount you take of these drugs will often be changed after blood tests, especially in the early years. As time goes on you will be checked less and the dose changed less. I currently take Tacrolimus twice a day and Azathioprine once a day.

These medications all have their own side effects and effect everyone differently, however the most prominent side effect is tremor. You may have trouble doing tasks such as writing when your levels are altering a lot. The medications can also effect things such as mood and sleep, giving vivid dreams. By taking these medications, their is also a high risk of developing diabetes, but this will be tested for at clinics. It is a good idea to get a bone scan every 2-3 years too as the medications can cause weak bones (Osteoporosis)

You may require other drugs such as sedatives and anti depressants as you adjust to living with a transplanted organ. Anti biotics maybe required to begin with to help aid the body and they may also be used whenever you have an infection. Anti ulcer drugs will also be given due to stress and changing levels of acid in the stomach. Some people develop problems with their blood pressure whilst in hospital and so medication maybe needed to treat this also.

After transplant, should you ever take ill and see a 'on call' doctor or a doctor who you are not familiar with, make sure you tell them you have had a transplant. It is also a good idea to ring your transplant liaison to check that it is ok to take any medication that has been prescribed to you.

Infection

Generally speaking, you will get sicker, quicker than an average person. What can cause a cold that clears up in a couple of days in one person, can often cause a major infection such as pneumonia that takes a couple of weeks to get over in you. Therefore it is a good idea to keep yourself well and away from sick people where possible. It is also a good idea to be able to spot if you should start with an infection.

Personally, I know I am getting ill when I begin sleeping a lot more than normal and my temperature begins to play up. I feel cold even when everyone else is normal. If you get a temperature, be seen as soon as possible as the sooner you catch it the easier it is to deal with.

Dietary requirements 

Healthy eating is essential after transplant, but there are a few precautions that you will need to take. Fruit and veg are great and you can still eat them! However, wash them all before you eat them. This goes for all pre packed salad and fruit as well.

You should never consume unpasturised milk or 'live' yoghurt. At the moment in the UK, there is a big thing with bringing out bio yoghurt. Every company seems to be going to bio, which is annoying when your not allowed it. The same with those little drinks such as actimel. They all contain live bacteria, which is ok for a healthy person, but with immunosuppressants they can cause infections and liver damage. The same goes for french of swiss soft cheese (camembert, brie), blue veined cheese (stilton) or any cheese with mould.

The one I struggle with is meat. I do love my meat. However you need to make sure it is fully cooked. If you ever travel to France, state 'Bien encoute' as they like to eat meat while its virtually still alive. (This was a major problem for me when I was in hospital their as they kept bringing me meat that was still bleeding, which is a big no no) I would suggest investing in a meat thermometer and a fridge thermometer to make sure your meat s kept at the right temperature. Cooked meat should only be kept for a maximum of 2 days and never ever reheated. It is also not recommended to buy things such as pre cooked chicken, especially in the likes of supermarkets where it is in a hot counter. This is because keeping the meat warm, can bread a lot of bacteria into it which can be dangerous.

Anything with raw eggs in it can be bad for you. This includes mayonnaise, egg nog and very lightly cooked eggs. Duck eggs and marzipan are also best avoided.

Drinks can be akward to remember which you can have and which you cant. In the UK they recommend not using bottled water. Tap water is far better for you and contains less bacteria. However if you travel abroad then they recommend switching to bottled water (But use a well known company such as vital, rather than the cheaper companies who just bottle tap water) or water purification. All other drinks especially fizzy drinks are fine to drank, however you should avoid ICE, again it can contain bacteria and such.

Eating out

Eating out is ok to do, though a little nerving to begin with. Check with the waiter to make sure there is nothing in the food that you are not allowed to have such as mayonnaise. Buffet style meals  are not a good idea (Though I do get naughty around this area, but I am a long time post transplant and on a very low medication level) Ask for food to be well cooked. And if you use fast food such as McDonalds, you can request that they cook your meat fresh. Only freshly cooked rice should be eaten and you should never drink out of a can! The metal on the lid breeds all kinds of bugs. Instead, wipe the top then either use a straw or tip into a glass.

Holidays

Holidays are a great idea! Ideally, I would wait a year before going on holiday to far away from home. I cant stress how important holiday insurance is! (I am still paying the bills from my 4 day trip to France without insurance) At first after transplant, I went with the only company that did travel insurance for medical problems, now however there are a lot of companies about that do it. Be warned though, you will pay more for it than an average person and even more if you have experienced any rejection. I have gone years without liver problems, so at this stage, I phone the company I am going to go with. They allow me to get full insurance on everything except my liver for the same price as a regular person would pay for insurance. This is risky, because if anything happened to my liver, I would have to pay for treatment myself. However the way I look at it is that I always have bloods run before I go on holiday so I know my liver is working fine. It is unlikely to suddenly take a turn for the worst during a two week holiday and if I feel myself getting sick, then I can usually get home pretty quick. (I used to use Atlas for this purpose, but I use a different company now as I need cover for my other medical problems)

Make sure you take enough medication and a few extra as spare, I usually take an extra weeks worth. This is just incase you should get stranded for any reason. It is also good practice to split your medication into at least two bags incase any should get lost. (I also pack about 4 days worth in hand luggage just to be safe)

Be careful with vaccinations too as live vaccines are not allowed after a transplant.

Pets

This is one of the hardest areas to think about as I love animals. The main restriction (And I looked this one up in my handbook) are caged birds as they can cause lung disease. Cats and dogs are fine as long as they have all their vaccines and worm medications. Animals should be kept out of the kitchen were possible and litter trays and such should be cleaned using gloves and throughly washing hands afterwards. I wanted ferrets but was told this was not a good idea, however, I now have 2 tortoises, but I am very cautious with these. Someone else cleans them out and I wash my hands after every handling. (Though I like to kiss and cuddle them, which, I keep getting told off for hehe)

Socializing
It is a good idea to avoid crowds for the first three months after transplant again due to infection, but once your three months are up there should be no problem. However if you come into contact with anyone with things such as chicken pox then you need to contact your transplant unit right away.

Clinic
If you have a morning clinic, you should not take your morning medication until you have been and had your bloods tested. To begin with your bloods will be checked frequently (maybe 2-3 times a week) this will gradually become less until you find yourself only being checked every 6-12 months. (Currently, I see my transplant hospital every 6 months and my local hospital every 6 months in between, so my bloods are checked every 3 months. This probably would be less, but given my history they like to keep an eye on me as I am on a lot of different medications from different areas)

Useful things to have

Ok, so this is a quick list of my most useful items once I got home after my transplant.

First off comes alco gel.

Buy it, keep it, use it!! 

Tablet box

Medications can get confusing. More so they can get confusing when you find yourself feeling exhausted and want to go to bed, but remember you need to take your pills. I sort mine out once a week and that means whenever I am due tablets, I can just take them without thinking about it. (I have strip ones that have one holder for each day of the week. I have one for my morning meds and one for my night meds. If I have day meds, I tend to just carry an extra strip with me.)

Thermometers
I would say buy 2 of these. Buy an in ear one.

These give the quickest readings, often record the last couple of readings and are more hygienic. However, before buying, look to see if they have probe covers and if they do can you buy them to replace the ones you have used. (I spent a lot on my first one only to find I couldnt buy covers for them) For people in the UK lloyds pharmacy do a calpol one pretty cheap and it has a big display.

I would also say, buy a stick one.

These are smaller and cheaper so you can throw it in your bag if you are feeling under the weather. They can be used under the arm in the mouth or in the bum (though I wouldn't recommend the bum method) I prefer these to the in the ear ones. They take a bit longer to give you a result, but I use them in my mouth and I find they are a lot more accurate. The in ear one can give slightly different results depending how far you push it in. Anything over 37.5 you should take a couple of paracetamol and speak to your transplant unit.

Brita filter

These can purify your water for you easily without having to measure out salts and such. They come in a lot of shapes and sizes and they are one essential item that I wont go on holiday without.

P20
This is one item I would recomened over and over again and I would be lost without it! (They also now make it in P10)

It is a suncream (well more like an oil) that has a protection of 20, though I think it has much more as I have never burnt with it even when I was burning easily. It is so hardwearing. You put it on in the morning and after 15 minutes, nothing will get it to budge. You can go on sand, swimming, sweating, make up, wet wipes, no matter what you do, it will stay on adequately for 12 hours. And whats more, it still lets you get a bit of color.
I recomened this to anyone with children, scars or who burn easily. You just dont have to worry about protection during the day. When I went away in May of this year, I found that my current anti biotics had made my skin really sensitive again. I sat in the sun for about 15 minutes in the afternoon and managed to burn all my abdominal scars through my t-shirt. From then on I put this on and had no other problems with them.

Bits and Bobs
The only other things I would recommend is having a well stocked medicine cabinet. Keep a first aid box with sterile dressings and anti bioitc cream for any cuts or scrapes you may get. Paracetamol (acetaminophen) for pain relief and temperatures. Senna and dio calm for any funny tummys. Perhaps a sports drink incase any illness should occur as they can help balance missing salts such as potassium.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

How great would life be if we lived a little of it everday.

So its time to stop being whiney.

Why should I be unhappy about not being ill? (double negative make a positive uh im rubbish at grammar meh)

No I dont have tumor, but I do still have the symptoms, so I am not making it up. I am also recovering from a rather intense few months where I was pretty ill. They dont keep you confined to bed rest in ICU for nothing. Yes I do feel crap at the moment, but I have beaten worse this. I have come far.

Tonight is a night of reflection. Yes I have had some pretty big set backs and I accept that, but what matters is that I keep trying, you never know what is around the corner right? When I was in ICU with my transplant, my mum took photos, when I would let her. Most of the time I sulked and said your taking a photo of me while I look like this, of course I wasnt always awake so it dosnt always work like that. I have 3 of them on my computer, i must find the others and upload them at some point. The three I have are not very good as I think I had to photo them to get on here, again will get around to fixing that at some point. But the purpose of these photos, was for when I started to get better, I could see how far I had come.

These two are from the first hospital I was and so was before my transplant and tracheostomy.





Ha check out the tan, gotta say I didnt look to bad for liver failure. Tube in my mouth was to keep me breathing, one down my nose was to keep my stomach empty of things such as bile and acid. Central line in my neck to give IV medication and such, catheter in my bladder to drain out urine, lots of medications including knock out meds and pain meds.

This was was taken post transplant (which happened on 14 December), but must have been after christmas as I have my trach in. I am also guessing it was before my birthday as I still have a feed tube down my nose in this one, but my stomach could not tolerate food, so I later had a peg tube put through my abdomen into the lower part of my stomach.

                                     

You cant really see it on this, but there is a thick red line across the pillow going to the dialysis machine as my kidneys shut down, which you can see looking at my size difference from the top picture. I just ballooned up in a  matter of days. Oh and the dude in the white coat, nope thats not my doctor, thats Jimmy Savile, not that I even knew who he was, or where I was for that matter. I also have a blood pressure cuff on instead of the usual measurement in ICU with an arterial line, as they had to take out the least important lines when I bled out and started getting clots.

So if I can get from that, to the point where I was able to partake being a full working nurse, I can improve on where I am now. Its just going to take some work and some time. But there is no rush. I will get there when I can.

I will be going on holiday in 28ish days, for almost three weeks. And when I come back? well then it will almost be time to go to London. I am going to try to use the holiday as a rest period. Nothing expected of me. I wont be doing any of my usual online work, I wont have any appointments and I will have time to sit and read, sew, play with my camera and mess around with photoshop. I can rest fully and take care of myself properly. The sun, will hopefully also do me good. Plus, being away with my parents, I will more than likely end up in a decent sleep pattern of a night.

Once, i get back? Then I think it is going to be time to get my butt into gear at getting well. I need to cut the crap out of my diet and lose some serious weight. Ideally I would love to lose about 5 stone, but even losing 1 would make a huge difference, so that will be my first goal. Im not going to go on any stupid crash diet nor am I going to join any expensive club like I did last time. Im also going to try to avoid weighing myself weekly and such as I know if i dont have a good week, I will just throw the towel in. Im just going to cut the crap out, cut down on my bread intake, increase my fruit intake and see where that goes. Im also going to try to force myself to do 40mins on the wii every night, and might thrown some running up the stairs in too.

The doctors can only fix so much, the rest I need to take responsibility for and do myself.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Emotional Rollercoaster

It has been one crazy week on an emotional roller coaster.

First I got my letter to go and see a consultant in London, had me jumping for joy (well if I could manage jumping). Then I had a discussion with the nurses that come 3 times a week and we agreed that it would be good at this stage to drop it to once a week and after a couple of weeks not have them out all (except for tube changes.) This left me feeling a little unnerved. I know its good as it means I am getting better and dont need them, I'm learning to cope with looking after myself now. But at the same time its scary because it means I am responsible for looking after myself and then there is the whole what do I do if things go wrong or I get ill.

It was my dads birthday on Monday so I saw my sister and family, which was nice but left me feeling a little drained. Then I found some of my family who I havnt spoken to for a long time on facebook. That was an odd feeling, seeing how much they had grown up and changed. Felt nervous talking to my mum about it but it seemed to go well.

Then I found out about the whole Cushings thing. Im still not sure how I feel about that. Its scary and the treatment options are scary, but I guess I just need more time to adjust and to speak to someone who knows a little bit more about it or about me.

Friday I went for a meal with my parents, which was nice, though I struggled to stay awake the whole time, I felt so drained. I was also filled with self destructive urges.

Then got plans sorted to add some new 'staff' to my volunteer team. This is a huge step as my little team is growing into something to be proud of. It is still int he making, but I have worked hard and gotten everything ready for them.

Saturday I heard about Eva dying. I spent a good few hours crying. She is such an inspiration and so brave till the end. I wish I had some of her class and style. She will always be remembered and has made such a difference to me and so many others.

And tomorrow I go to London to speak with this consultant and hope and pray that there is something they can do to help, to allow me to breathe fully and to talk once again. I would love to get rid of this trach, it is really starting to rub raw at the moment and is so sore.

I couldnt sleep last night.  Lot going round in my head. Mainly Eva and London. I curled up with my music on and watched the sun rise out of my window as tears slowly plopped off my chin. My head just does not seem to know if its coming or going lately. Even the whole london thing is marred. I mean yeah, it would be great to be breathing and talking, but then there is the whole ethical side and going back on the transplant list not to mention can I offered the traveling up and down for treatment. But I am trying not to dwell on that at the moment. Im still not getting my hopes up until I speak to them tomorrow and find out what they suggest.

I finally got to sleep around 8am this morning and I was going to have an early night, but as its already 12:20 I think that has gone out the window. oops. So up early tomorrow. Its going to be a long day.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Eva

Eva <3
WOW
I'm stunned.
I really thought you would get the call.
You fought long and hard and put up on hell of a fight.
I admire you Eva, you inspired so many and you will never know how many you helped.
Just receiving a letter from you brightened my day while I was in hospital.
You told me to keep fighting and I have and will.
Just wish you were there to share it.


My thoughts go out to all your family and friends at this point.
Breathe easy Eva. No more tubes and wires that you hate, your free to run and dance down the sidewalk in your heels.