Wednesday, December 07, 2011


Things seem to be changing a lot.
More specifically, I seem to be changing a lot.

Something has been missing for a while and yet I am only just noticing now that it hasn't been there.

I'm talking about my ability to bounce back.
No matter what happened I used to strive for better. 6 months after being discharged from a 3 month stay in icu, I had gone back to college. I always fought to make something of my life. Yet recently I have stopped. Maybe it's the prolonged treatments or perhaps I just took a knock more than I could deal with. I don't know. But it's time to bounce back.

Let's face it, surgery is not going to help. The prospect of a normal airway may never happen. I can't keep waiting on maybes from my surgeon.

Right now, things are pretty ok. I have not been to theater in 6 weeks and my body is thanking me for it.

We seem to have worked on getting a good mix of medication, inhalers, nebs, antibiotics and culture tests going. My gp trust me. I can virtually phone them and get what I need right away. Be that an appointment, prescription, or hospital forms. I once again know my body.

I am ready to get going. I know that I have written it a few times, but I am more sure of it now. After the holidays I am going to look into going back to work. Part time to begin with. By august I hope to either be going full time or back to uni.

There are a lot of reasons behind this, but in short I am excited. I am once again on the right path.

I think everyone has a hard life in some respects, it's all relative to experience in the end. But it's what you do with it that counts. I need a purpose and I can't wait to get back to my old ways of dealing with things.

1 comment:

  1. What a lovely post, so cheerful and determined. You really are a fighter. I wish you the very best.
    Merry Christmas.