Can you guess where I am?

Back on 10 south *groans*
So yeah, I went to clinic, which meant leaving our house at 5am, so I was essentially getting up when I would usually go to bed. And for some reason I can never sleep on trains, cars yes, trains no. So waited a little while in clinic and was then called through. The doctor actually came back out to look for me as I was taking so long. Sat down in his office and he asked how the breathing was, to which I took a breathe in and said not so good, straight off he said I think we need to admit you. He asked about my peak flows, wrote in huge letters in my file SOB and circled it.Had a quick look down with the nasal camera. Man, I still hate them things, but they are getting a little easier.

He said there was a lot of granulation, more than would normally be seen at this stage. Well that set the ball rolling, I was admitted, though had to wait for a bed. Cannula placed right away. Well as right away as you can get with my veins, but it was only 3 attempts so not to bad. They allowed me to leave the ward to pick up a few bits while they were waiting on my bed being free, so I was able to pick up some essentials that I hadnt taken with me, such as juice and grab some dinner.

Admitted to the ward started on IV steroids and Anti biotics. Yes I did grumble at the whole steroid thing as I dont want to go back down the route of cushings, but they said it should be ok as its only going to be a couple of days and if it needs to be longer then they will review it.

I am now also listed for tomorrows emergency theater list, oh what fun. Probably be laser and dillation, but they should know more once they have had a look.

The thing is, at the moment it seems to come and go, sometimes I can breathe fine, and other times it feels really tight. But then I feel like more of a fraud, as I went for a walk a little while ago and I was breathing better than I have all week. I know its probably related to the whole steroids thing taking effect, but it does somewhat bring back my old ever present fear, of what if I get to theatre and they look and say nothing is wrong, stop wasting our time and stop exaggerating. I guess, I need to keep in mind my peak flows, they have been going down, so I cant be making things up surely?

I guess we shall see tomorrow. I know I am in the best hands, and I have a lot of faith in my team.